I am still having trouble matching the Endings & Consequences to this rune. Inspiration comes up over and over again. Once again I was drawn to The Modern Curio. This I was struck by arwen or inspiration and hope this means that I will get some serious writing done on my current project. That would make me feel accomplished and peaceful.
Happy Birthday to my Beloved Stone!
Reviewing my day in relation to yesterday’s draw, a realized it was very intuitive to how my day went. So I drew my stick for today. Fertility <> Boundaries are the code words. I find this interesting because I am transitioning my life as an HPS, moving towards empowering others to do portions of the job I used to do solely.
This has made my world much more fertile. I am studying and writing more per day now than I ever have and this is leading to a balancing act that I am struggling to adapt to. Today I had an interesting conversation with a friend on Facebook about how he equates hydration as a necessary step to keep one psychically healthy – PSYCHICALLY healthy.
When I get stress, I stress eat. I love me some Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups. Seriously. This is such a thing that when my husband priest and son notice my stress levels rising, I find that Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups magically appear all over my house or in my purse.
Here’s the thing – eating creamy peanut butter goodness dunked in milk chocolate may be a temporary fix for my stress – it is a long term issue. I am trying to loose weight and bring down my cholesterol before I suffer a stroke.
So, just yesterday morning, I asked my accountability partners to make me accountable for how much junk I put in my body and how much water I took in or did not take in as the case may be.
Yesterday, it was a mini tater tots and mini Reese’s Blast from Sonic. Which was an improvement from the like three Reese’s chocolate bars I ate the day before, but still not my best.
Boundaries aren’t just about where we draw lines and ask others to stay in or out of. They are also about what we draw for ourselves. How do we hold ourselves to the boundaries we need to be successful?
It is no surprise to me that fertility and boundaries are bound through hawthorn. Because I have learned just recently that the more fertile my life is, the more stringently I need to apply boundaries TO MYSELF in order to stay sane and not put back on the nearly 20 lbs I have already lost.
What boundaries do you struggle with? Are those boundaries being broken by you keeping your life from fertility? What is your Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup?
I honor the energy of hawthorn for cleansing and restraint. I will choose what I place within my body, and empty myself of all that violates my personal well-begin. So mote it be. SITE SOURCE
I am a huge John Matthews fan. Only when I was doing research for this day did I realize I actually own this deck which was a gift from Lady Siobhan. After drawing my ogham stick, I read the back Adversity <> Discipline and sighed heavily.
Today I have to go to the Social Security office and get some things straight. This is something I do not want to do and haven’t really been interesting in doing. However, I have to do it. When I drew this stick, I had already prepared my paper work and started getting things ready to go to this meeting. Drawing this ogham stick just made me feel defeated, until I came across Matthews explanation on this site.
MAGIC IS EVERYWHERE
Magic lies all around us – not the magic of fairy tales, but real magic connecting our universe to a living continuum. After centuries of being told that it was forbidden, the preserve of experts, we have now forgotten the magic that lies within us. To access this personal magic, we must step away from busy, surface consciousness and sink deeply into the ever-flowing stream of our magical dreams. The ideas, scenes, and presences that throng the deepest levels of our understanding require intense listening: we must step into the present and interact with it as fully as possible. This Blackthorn card suggests that we remember that magic is everywhere (far closer than we think) that it brings light into the darkest places. What makes the Blackthorn so strong is its ability to foster waking dreams.
The magic of thorns: Like all thorny plants, the blackthorn had a darker side and, like the blackberry, reminds us of the hedge of thorns preventing the prince from reaching Sleeping Beauty unscathed. In some stories the prince loses his sight when he falls upon the thorns, and of course there is also the ever-present association with the crown placed around Christ’s brow at the Crucifixion.
This lightened my outlook some because there can be magick in the Social Security office. So I can go there and I can bring my outlook that all is going to be well and write and good. I can use the discipline of my magickal practice to walk into that office with the future set clearly in my mind that all will be well and corrected and beneficial to my family.
The Blackthorn is also used in the creation of traditional walking sticks that served the dual purpose of being a weapon. Think Robin Hood and his merry men beating each other with long sticks or staves. Blackthorn is the traditional wood used in their creation. Which further explains why discipline is required. You can’t just throw a stick around and expect it to be a good weapon. The thorns have always been used in folk magick of hexing.
So I am going to choose that going to the SS Office is a type of adversity that I would rather not face and I have the discipline required to deal successfully with it and visualize the magick and the outcome that is to the best of my family coven’s benefit. I have been using walking sticks for a long time.
I haven’t really said how I am going about this. Thanks to my friend Morgen, I had made Ogham Sticks. These sticks were charged and blessed during a full moon. These sticks are just popsicle sticks. Using a marker, one side has the Ogham word (Ailm) and the tree association (Pine). On the other side of the stick are two or three key words associated with this Ogham (wonder <> insight).
I think about the day to come and then pull an ogham stick. Then I use online sources and Blamires’ book The Celtic Tree Mysteries.
Today I am struck by the fact that the sound of this Ailm is “ahhhhhh.” The sound you make when you suddenly understand something you didn’t before. Ah- ha! I am going to be looking for the ah-ha today. What ah-ha do you experience today?
Having already consulted Balamirs for the the meaning of the Ogham recently, I have skipped it today. Instead I went online looking for new sources with different information. Of course I went to EcoEnchantments which has been a page I have been borrowing my pictures for the Ogham from and read through their information which was largely about growth of the tree and medicinal uses. I then ended up on Modern Curio which talked about the tree representing the Crone which recalled for me the Wiccan Rede and the following excerpt:
“Elder is the Lady’s tree
Burn it not or cursed you’ll be.”
However, both sites talked extensively about how self generating the Elder Tree is. The Modern Curio says:
“Elder is a tree that constantly regenerates, and thousands of years of trees can sprout in the same spot. Because of this, it is a symbol of change, spiritual growth, and the ability to endure whatever challenges you may be facing. It is a tree that reminds us of the wisdom of the ancestors, or the elders – and of past experiences that make us who we are today.”
Today during meditation I was really struggling with all the thoughts and ideas I was being bombarded with around my current project. I stopped meditating two times to record voice memos about the ideas I had in my attempt to shut down my brain. When I read about the self generation of the Elder tree, I saw all these ideas as little elder trees springing up through the cracks in my meditative practice and through my spiritual life in general. It is as if this project wants to plant itself everywhere.
This sounds cool. Unless it is your meditative practice these ideas are popping up in. It is actually overwhelming and trying to be the recipient of such constant ideas. There is no time to flesh one idea out before another is settling into try and take root. I begin to worry that some ideas will not flourish because I can’t pay them attention. Which is why the Crone in my mind is associated with this tree. Only a wizened old woman could handled such an abundance of ideas and growth. So only in conjunction with the goddess can I handled this bombardment of ideas.
Given my meditative results today, choosing this rune this morning is not at all surprising.
Reading through Blamires the following passage stood out:
“It is making you break new ground, to go forth and, using your will, to experiment in new ares and see your results.”
My morning meditative journey was all around my current project with insights into that project and ramifications for that. Then my meditation for resting my mind ended up being an extension into using the ham radio equipment I referred to earlier in the week in a different way.
I feel inundated with new ground and new ideas and overwhelmed at wanting to capture them before they slip from me. All of this makes any time I can disconnect from everything more important.
What new ground are you breaking in your life? What is overwhelming you because you can’t seem to capture and manifest it quickly enough? How do you disconnect in order to stay stable?
What references do you use to study the Ogham?
Artwork found here.
Given what I have written on the past few days about energetics and taking a break for your psychic and mental health, I found drawing this Ogham today interesting. Typically I draw the Ogham early in the day but today I didn’t draw
the Ogham until I got home from work and a ministerial meeting. Only a few hours before drawing this Ogham, I had written on Facebook, “Got caught up on Facebook posts. I am finally feeling the effects of the illness I spent the week fighting off. I have lots of work to do and am just trying to stay awake to do some work. I may have to take tomorrow off and rest only. So much to do though and I don’t really want to do that.”
Blamires writes about the mental and spiritual health that this Ogham suggests by saying: “To leave things lying around half done on a magical level can cause infection and disease. Independent life forms can attach themselves to things left by careless Otherworld travelers. These Otherworld “viruses” can take on a life of their own, and do considerable damage.
In the higher realms, these unwanted items, dirt you will, may not be obvious. They can consist of abstract things such as incorrect or malicious thoughts, feelings, emotions, and mental actions. You must learn to recognize them, and this is what the ivy [the ogham before broom] will help you do. Them you must learn to use the broom as your inner sight and smell to pick up these things and get rid of them.”
Combine this confirmation of the focus of my spiritual and magickal workings, this Ogham today seems to reflect that. Given, my recent bout of physical illness, this Ogham seems to suggest a time to rest is at hand.
What is weird to me is that my reliable Ogham mistress, calls this Ogham Reed not broom and says that the keys are communication and insulation. I resonated with the insulation portion of this Ogham as I felt like I need some insulation myself. Sometime to physical recuperate which I have put off because of one thing or another since I took ill last Saturday.
I’ll have to ask my reliable Ogham mistress why her interpretation differs from Blamires?
Artwork found here.
Today I am in the Daily Ham Radio. This is odd. Even odder is why I am in it. Yesterday I posted a blog called Magick, Energetics and Burn Out of Pagan Leaders. This article was one prompted after a two hour car ride with another magickal practitioner. During this car ride we were talking about mediumship and channeling and some of the problems associated with that work. I gave him a brief run down of my scientific view about this type of work and resolved to write an article about the specific mechanism I use which has to do with ham radios and antennas. I have trained for the certifications for Ham Radio and passed the related test and when searching for a mechanism it is what I turned to (tuned to?).
The article got picked up the Daily Ham Radio and is now circulating through an entire subculture I had not originally intended. On the one hand, this is great! Other magickal and pagan workers might see the article and be able to use the technique to great affect! Yea! Go me!
On the other hand, I just drew the Ruis, Rowan Ogham which is Protection and Inspiration. I have drawn attention to myself and having known lots of ham radio operators over the years, many of them are not going to be too fond of my article. So I am called to draw up my protection today. I do some extra things to ensure the prayers turned psychic missiles don’t wreck my day. I feel the doubled edge sword that is a writer’s desire to be read and known with a writer’s desire to be read and known.
I find it interesting that in Full Moon ritual I called the Daghdha and this is the tree that he is associated with. The Wild Hunt is also here, all that male energy suddenly flooding my antenna and ham radio.
Come to me and cast your shining sunlight
Cloud the eyes of those who seek
To dim my inner bright
Holy Daghdha Rowan Shield
Blessed be your child this day and through the night.
LMNC, 1/23/2016; Inspired by another poet
Art work found here.
Here we are again with the Ruis Elder Ogham. We looked at this yesterday and talked about the veneer the people might put in place to ensure they present the most favorable presentation possible.
Yesterday, I lost my temper at a beautiful woman in our coven. I yelled, cussed, argued and pretty much held an entire conversation in her presence over everything I was frustrated about that had nothing to do with her specifically. I was rushed, harried – hell – the excuses could be a mile long here and aren’t important.
I love her. I was rude to her. She didn’t deserve it. I could have dealt better.
So I told her that today. I apologized and asked for forgiveness.
Yesterday I ordered a book from Christine Hoff Kraemer, an editor ofPagan Consent Culture: Building Community of Empathy & Autonomy, of which I am part of. She refunded me $1. 67. One dollar and sixty-seven cents!
Here is a person who is owning in a deep and meaningful way the Ruis, Elder. Her actions when no one would know are still driven by the highest moral and ethical standards.
For me, this is about who I am deeply. Am I being true to that? Am I living that? Am I reflecting that?
The answer is probably not, none of us are really. And those who try can count that as a win worth more than $1.67.